long day, still ticking

[prisbatty]

long day, still ticking jerry
after a night of nightmares
which when coupled with my own loop tape of fristration
keps me from sleeping till first light
has his first 'overnight potty accident' at 6:45 am
and he tried vallianty to return to sleep
but didnt.
so

we did nap for three hours this afternoon
but not solidly for me
having my own nightmares.
He woke from the nap in the WORST mood Ive ever experienced.
(Rivaled and topped the TV fit that was what brough on my final straw...)
I finally walked away and made dinner...
a nice bit of hormone free beef, baked sweet potatoe, edamame, and mac n cheese, with a homeopathic chocolate milk.
THE KID ATE AN ADULTS PORTION OF FOOD.
can you say WICKED growth spurt.

This spurt
coupled with me changing meds, having my moon phase,
and the brain chemistry shift caused my having indulged in my dear clove cigs
durring this rough patch
are going to make for a touchy couple of days.

I am calm.  I am calm.  I am calm.


meanwhile
with last nights lack of sleep and the hormonal onslaught
I thought
id crash to a near dead state quickly tonight
but no

Yearning doing a tango with anger

sends me downstairs again
to trio dalamads, home made hummus and a hard cider
which i hope
when coupled with a lore tab
will knock my ass out for the first decent nights sleep in a week.
ugh

tomorrow,
catering prep for a surprise party a neighbor is throwing for her mum on saterday.
I had to dumb down my usual flair
as this is a mayo and white bread crowd.
Im doing two avant guard selections...
but we darent more.

Its nice to be appreciated and taken seriously for my talents.